A Little Rant

I haven't done this in such a long time that I just feel like screaming! I meed to haves a proper rant. I am not even really angry at anyone in general just situations really.I am upset with my family relationships! My mom hates my husband....the feeling is likewise so that makes it super difficult to hang with my mom who I have ALWAYS been close with. I know they are both to blame but it is a pretty efed up situation. Next, there is my mom in law and what I call the Bermuda triangle. I get mad at an isolated situation and I get over things quick and he takes off with it and yells at his mom over it. Or I am told to stay away from his sister and mom and than I am at a rock and a hard place! I like them most of the time and would love to be able to hang out but my husband usually gets upset about it or makes my life hell over it.....I guess it is sometimes a square more than a triangle. I just wish we could get along hang out on the weekends have our kids play while we sit by the firepit ect...you get the point but no. Someone told me you should look at how a man treats his mom and sister, then you'll know how he will treat you. Sometimes I wish someone would have told me that before I got married! I don't know someone tell me....is marriage supposed to be a huge disappointment or is it just the man I married? I wonder what would happen if we polled other married women who can say I am honestly happy? I am sure its a fair amount but I know other people feel me out there. Life can be disappointing...thank God I have wonderful children!

To clip or not to?

Ok so lately I have had lots of time to reflect since I lost my job. I like being home with my babies but it also shows me how much time I have lost since I work full time. My baby Eli Patrick is going to be 6 in like 2 1/2 weeks and starting Kg too! I remember holding that little baby boy with gorgeous hair and skin. He was so perfect. Now, he is a wonderful big brother and starting school. Hayden is now almost 2 yrs old. She walks and talks. I worry about the amount she doesn't talk but I am sure she will get there with time. We know she has the words at least. Next, I think about me...I am 31 almost 32 years old and my husband has decided he only wants 1 kid and Eli and we are done having children. I want to be ok with that I really do, but part of me just can't accept it. I wanted more and yeah i've heard the b s about affording more from my mom....I have the heart of a Duggar just not quite as extreme. I love my children don't get me wrong I have the perfect boy and theperfect girl, but is that it.....I am really done? No more pregnancies....midnight feedings? I guess I will have to wait and see what God has planned for me.