To clip or not to?

Ok so lately I have had lots of time to reflect since I lost my job. I like being home with my babies but it also shows me how much time I have lost since I work full time. My baby Eli Patrick is going to be 6 in like 2 1/2 weeks and starting Kg too! I remember holding that little baby boy with gorgeous hair and skin. He was so perfect. Now, he is a wonderful big brother and starting school. Hayden is now almost 2 yrs old. She walks and talks. I worry about the amount she doesn't talk but I am sure she will get there with time. We know she has the words at least. Next, I think about me...I am 31 almost 32 years old and my husband has decided he only wants 1 kid and Eli and we are done having children. I want to be ok with that I really do, but part of me just can't accept it. I wanted more and yeah i've heard the b s about affording more from my mom....I have the heart of a Duggar just not quite as extreme. I love my children don't get me wrong I have the perfect boy and theperfect girl, but is that it.....I am really done? No more pregnancies....midnight feedings? I guess I will have to wait and see what God has planned for me.